You Are The Pilot To Your Own Plane & Its Up To You To Decide Which Direction

Reality sure has a way of hitting you all at once. Seems like just yesterday I was just starting high school, my period, and having a bigger interest in guys. But that was back in 2008 and this is 2011. I'm going to be starting my senior year in a month and I feel like I have accomplished anything. The first two years of high school I just didn't care about anything except what I wore, friends and boys. My junior year I started buckling down and got serious. Not with just school but with sports, mainly basketball, and boys, finding out who my true friends were and realizing none of the other stuff mattered. It wasn't until a few days ago I was talking with my mom that I realized I never really accomplished anything the 3 years I was in high school. I have never had a job, driver licence, car, I played sports but it was more because my friends did and not because I wanted to try to get a possible scholarship to play in college. Now I'm a senior, my gpa ended up being a 3.0, which I could have easily gotten at least a 3.5 if I would have tried the first 2 years of high school, and I might be getting looked at by 1 college to play basketball for them. I had so many hopes and different things I was planning on accomplishing my senior year and none of them will be getting accomplished. Life isn't about finding yourself, life is about creating yourself. So far I haven't been doing such a hot job at creating myself the way I invisioned. But thats why God gave us such a long lifetime because if we had a short lifespan there would be little hope for anyone with as much messing up and redoing people do. I realized you will make more mistakes than you anticipate and yes you will stumble and fall under temptation and its up to you to make changes and decide how you want to live your life. I started off thinking, "Why didn't God make me realize these things before my last year in high school?" I should really be thanking him because most people don't realize they are going down the wrong path until they are in college or even when they are going on 30. I have the choice to make the best out of my last year or gripe and complain because its not how I planned. Well life has a funny way of making unexpected changes, good or bad. Its up to me to work hard, play hard and buckle down..time to make the rest of my life.